EMBRACING NEW BEGINNINGS!!!!

THIS I WILL DEFINITELY BE DOING AS IT WILL BE A LIFE STYLE I HAVE LONGED FOR. IT WILL BE NICE TO BE IN THE COUNTRY, HAVE QUIETNESS SURROUNDING ME APART FROM MY TWO LITTLE TWO YEAR OLD RUNNING ABOUT IN OUR LARGE YARD. IT WILL BE SO WONDERFUL. I SO MUCH LOOK FORWARD TO PLANNING MY GARDEN FOR NEXT SPRING, AND MY NEW FLOWER GARDENS FOR THE YARD AS WELL. THERE WILL BE SO MUCH FOR ME TO LEARN AND BECOME ACCUSTOMED TO ONCE AGAIN. I REALLY BELIEVE THAT THERE WILL BE SOME NEW GROWTH FOR ALL OF US. SO YES I AM READY AND REALLY LOOK FORWARD TO THE NEW BEGINNINGS FOR MYSELF AND MY FAMILY. ALSO ERICA WHENEVER YOU FEEL LIKE TAKING A DRIVE AND YOUR CHILDREN HAVE ALOT OF ENERGY TO BURN AND YOU WOULD LIKE THEM TO PLAY FREELY WITHOUT HAVING TO WORRY ABOUT A VEHICLE GETTING IN THERE WAY YOU HAVE A OPEN INVITATION TO COME AND HAVE TEA!!! I WILL ANTICIPATE MANY VISITS FROM YOU AND CINDY AND ANYONE ELSE I KNOW WHO HAS YOUNG CHILDREN. WELL I HAVE COMPANY AND I SHOULD SIGN OFF TILL NEXT TIME.

SAYING GOODBYE!!!

YESTERDAY WAS A RATHER DIFFICULT DAY AS I HAD TO SAY GOODBYE TO CHILDREN I HAVE BABYSAT SIT THEY WERE THREE MONTHS OLD. IT WAS EXTREMELY DIFFICULT AS I WILL NOT SEE THEM ANYMORE ON A DAY TO DAY BASIS. I BEGAN GRIEVING THE DAY BEFORE AS IT HIT ME LIKE A TONNE OF BRICKS, I WOULD NO LONGER SEE THEM EVERY DAY HERE ABOUT THERE EVENINGS WITH THERE PARENTS, THE NEW GAMES THEY PLAYED ETC. IT WAS ACTUALLY KIND OF FUNNY AS THERE MOM AVOIDED ME AS SHE KNEW I WOULD BE VERY EMOTIONAL. THE FOUR YEAR OLD KEEPS TELLING HIS MOM HE WILL GO TO SCHOOL AND THEN BE COMING BACK TO AUNTIES HOUSE. IT WILL BE INTERESTING TO SEE HOW HE MAKES OUT WHEN THEY GET BACK FROM THERE HOLIDAYS. THE EIGHT YEAR OLD CRIED WITH ME AS WELL.
SO TODAY I AM ASKING GOD WHAT HE IS SAYING TO ME AS I AM HEARING HIM AGAIN IN THIS SITUATION, HAVING TO LET GO AGAIN. AAHHH!!! SO IT WILL BE INTERESTING TO SEE/HEAR THE REVELATION I WILL GET FROM GOD AS THIS PROCESS CONTINUES.

HAVING TO LET GO !!!!

On Sunday I learned another one of lifes lessons in parenting. I got the biggest scare of my life, whether your children are two or seventeen. We were out with friends on Sunday and circumstance came about that my son was on a lake in the dark, with no flash light, not really a boat but a dingy and on one side of the lake a dam with a 50 foot drop. After waiting awhile we had to get the emergency crews out to look for him and another adult. I was so happy he returned back safely but in the midst of it all I was only imagining the worse. It was absolutely horrifying. On the way home it was very quiet and although I cried and cried I heard God say will you TRUST ME??? It was like yeah of course, then I heard that the next five years there would be more moments like this. So I had to let go of my son and believe that in all things God will protect him always. How difficult this is for me as although he is seventeen he is my baby. So this week has been a week of intense praying and saying yes to God. I also took this as a warning that my responsibility is to just PRAY PRAY PRAY!!!! Our God is a good God in all things. gail