SOMETHING NEW!!!

With Spring new things come so I thought I would take the time this am even if I am so, so tired and blog. My husband has returned from the North and I am not sure how long he is home for but I am hoping he will be called out again. He is ok for the first couple of days he is home but them after that everything becomes critical, and negative. Survival for me at this time is not good with this type of attitude so as bad as it sounds at present I do much better with him away. I have finally made the decision that my foster son will be leaving in June, oh what a relief this will be. I have been a prisoner in my own home with this child here and it is time to let him go. I also got word that we are no longer to pray for a baby girl as we know the sex of the baby. We do need to pray for a safe healthy delivery for both mom and baby now though. Without being too wordy about the situation because it is personnal, my request is that you pray God's will and protection. My children are extremely happy to have the nice weather here as they are able to go out and play, ride there bikes, skateboard, shoot hoops, and play hockey. The only hard thing is getting them to school on those nice days as they want to do there own thing. I am very excited as every day I get up and look at all my plants I have planted to see which ones have grown more. It will be in know time and I will be able to be out there in the yard and plant my plants and work in the yard. Working in the garden the place that gives me life. I am going to take a rest as I am going to sleep so I will save this draft and make sure ou will all be updated with accuracey to date. WEll more update a little more as I am not deleting the upper part of this new blog as it takes me long enough to get somthing out here. Next year I promise to do better. Ok well my hubby went away and returned and now is gone again. I have now begun the work in my yard and I am loving decorating my deck to enjoy in the evenings, with lots of lights and working in my flower beds, and I am seeing some light. A note was dropped off to me in regards to HE IS RISEN , YES HE HAS RISEN AND OH HOW GRATEFUL AM I THAT WITH THAT COMES FREEDOM TO LIVE!!! BY HIS GRACE, HIS LOVE AND HIS UNDERSTANDING OF WHO I AM. There will be much light at the end of June and much more freedom, no more jail time for me as a certain individual in my home will be departing. Yee Ha!!! ANYONE WANT TO COME AND PARTY WITH ME!!! A good time to be had by all. My children will be free, and I will be free. Of course I will have to deal with the fact that I was unable to have done "what would Jesus do", but I am not Jesus. So disappointing my husband and Jesus will be a tough one to get over but I know that JESUS will forgive me and wants me to live for my children I have chosen to raise. They need a mom who will be full of life not a bedridden one right??? My husband will have to get over it, and if he cared so much he would have been much more supportive, than to see me deplete in becoming someone I am not called to be. I see the light and the LIFE THAT JESUS HAS GIVEN ME AND WANTS ME TO LIVE, I WILL OVERCOME THE PAST YEAR OF HELL. Well company is here and I should get this out to all my friends who love me and want to know where I am and what is going on in my very busy life. Will try to be more faithful as light and life comes back.Thanksfor all your support and hanging in there for me. Love to all of you!!!