Saturday, November 13, 2004

ANY ONE KNOW HOW TO SAY NO????

At this point in my life, I am feeling God telling me it's okay to say no. That I must beging to learn to say no. Looking for when you draw the line to compromise, and just say "no". Over the past couple of weeks I became very overwhelmed with life circumstance, and not being able to say the N to those close to me, or those who would call. In what I felt may have been a brink/close call to insanity;losing myself in the midst of it all. When your crying inside oh God HELP, I CAN'T DO IT ANYMORE!!!! He is faithful and brings things about that in the midst of all the craziness, your weaknesses begin to appear and you realize you cannot save the world. He reminds you that that is why Jesus died, and it is not mine alone to carry. In a moment you begin to wither and give in and say ok, yes my life is now falling apart and I just cannot do it. Amazing how when you cry out to Him and He comes and gives you what you need, to find your sanity. So I do have a weekend of quietness with just me and my babies, my son is on a retreat, and my fosterson gone to a uncles. Life will slow down because I have to make that choice. Nice to help but not at the expense of those who are suppose to matter most to me. I feel God speaking to me and I know this but its that part of us that is driven to just go, go, go. When peace is no longer in the home and turmoil surrounds us we need to put oursevles in check to see what is going on. Lifes lessons continue no matter how old you are and sometimes they occur over and over again; until the light comes on and we actually begin to smell the coffee. I do enjoy the challenges that are thrown my way as often these are the times I seem to grow the most and I really do love that these are the times I really HEAR GOD THE LOUDEST!!! So I do have to say HE IS MY SANITY!!!! I am so happy to have Him as my Very Best Friend and the one who is always there to teach me lifes important lessons. Its a season to go deep and grow once again.

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

TREASURING THE QUIET MOMENTS !!!

I JUST SPENT TWENTY MINUTES DOING UP A LONG BLOG ABOUT THE QUIET MOMENTS AND LOST MY CONNECTION. I DID NOT REALIZE THIS WAS LOST UNTIL AFTER I TRIED POSTING IT AND PRESSING THE REFRESH BUTTON DID NOT WORK SO. MAKING THE LONG STORY SHORT I JUST HAVE TO SAY THAT IN THE MIDDLE OF ALL OF OUR DAILY LIVES AND THE BUSINESS OF OUR LIVES HE DOES GIVE US QIET MOMENTS UPON WHICH WE CAN CATCH UP AND BREATH AND KNOW THAT HE IS WITH US AND WE ARE NOT ALONE. IN THOSE MOMENTS HE GIVES OF REFRESHMENT AND THE COURAGE, STRENGTH AND WHATEVER WE NEED TO CARRY ON. DOESN'T MATTER WHO WE ARE OR WHERE WE ARE WE ALL HAVE OUR OWN AGENDA'S FILL WITH OUR FAMILIES, FRIENDS AND WHATEVER ELSE LIFE THROWS OUR WAY. LIFE IS BUSY NO MATTER WHO YOU SPEAK TO NOW A DAYS. THE IMPORTANT KEY TO FINDING THE QUIET MOMENTS IS PRIORITIZING IT ALL AND KNOWING IT ALL KEEPS UNTIL WE GET AROUND TO IT. (SOMETIMES). THAT WAS SORT OF WHAT I WROTE IN A SHORT CAP AND ITS LATE AND TOMORROW IS ONLY HOURS AWAY SO I SHOULD GO TO BE, BESIDES ONE OF MY BABIES JUST WOKE UP AND SCARED ME UP SO I SHOULD GET HIM TO BED. UNTIL I GET BACK HERE ONCE AGAIN.